The hunger for the father translates to a hunger for the king.
We all know and have felt briefly the purifying waters of the sacred spring. We have a golden finger, or eye, or hair and this reminds us that there is something much more to our lives and the world. However we don’t understand it. Most people don’t understand it because they have never descended, failed a lot or spent time eating ash as they would say in the old days. Or they descend and stay in the kitchen basement of life, sweeping up the dust and slop, knowing that they have golden hair but cover it up. They don’t know exactly what it means to have golden hair, their frustrated by it but hide it from others because their not sure what happens.
Robert Bly- Such hair is a taste of heaven but we don’t know what to do with it when we meet the king. Whether to let it show and brag about it, or hide it and be devious.
The king is the best version of you and also the best version of a particular moment and energy. When a person transcends who they are, into a perfect instrument of life. Which is totally connected at all levels to time, space and energy. This union creates the experience of the golden moment. When the batter whose team is 3 runs down, with the bases loaded and 2 outs and 2 strikes against him, becomes the moment when the pitcher releases the ball and he already knows he has hit the grand slam. The swing and ball become one shinning force experience that creates golden greatness. Where the human being becomes king for a moment because he understands gold, creates gold, is gold.
Now on smaller levels this meeting with king and gold power happens to us all. A great sales pitch, a successful romantic inquiry, calling a bluff, recognizing a lie, staying true to oneself and integrity, saying no, creating a great piece of art or writing a great line or paragraph if you are so favored by the muses.
All of us have felt the king or queen in us and basked in the glow of their treasure. We are humans with divinity in us so we will always run into the king or queen eventually. But because most of us never descended or lack discipline (inner warriors) we always want more king and this causes us to fall. We can’t sustain the experience indefinitely, were not meant to.
A couple of imagery exercises can easily demonstrate this. Imagine you are that human who experienced that golden moment at the baseball game. What if that moment, once it began never ended. The energy, the adrenaline, the glory, the intensity. It’s not sustainable, it would quickly kill the human who was experiencing it. They would love it but it would kill them all the same. Now what if we could some how keep that human alive through some miraculous means. When would that bliss become torture, how long. It’s rain and cold that help us understand the blessing and greatness of sunshine and warmth. The two opposing forces are what create the great experience and balance of life. Life is where these two opposing forces move back and forth between each other. If there is no fluctuation, than death is usually the result. All heat results in desert, all cold is glacier, not much life.
Still it’s these kingly/queenly moments which give us inspiration to seek out more. Which is a good thing but sometimes unfortunately creates a lot of problems. Once you meet the king and he dismisses you, you feel empty and want more again. And if the meeting was strong enough, the longing for a return to it could take over someones life and continually disrupt it. Drugs, gambling, sex, approval, validation, great success all could lead to this obsession with king moments. A person could lose themselves in the appetite for finding more golden moments and never want to do anything else, totally unfulfilled unless practicing king seeking. At this point every other part of life, responsibilities, maintenance, eating, work, relationships, become viewed as less then, negative and fall to the wayside. Drug addicts do this all the time. They get high to escape the mundane and meet with the king all the time. They care about nothing else. However these meetings are with an artificial king and are not rejuvenating and fulfilling. The drug brings the appearance of gold into their life for brief moments. What is so seductive is it seems that they can control the gold. So in a way they become their own false kings, creating fools gold in their soul, instead of real AU. Eventually it kills them or they finally descend enough and hit rock bottom.
This is the most important point in any drug addicts life because it’s the moment that gives them the power and insight to realize their issue. When they get as low as they can go with out dying, they feel the opposite of gold energy and it allows them to gain respect for the mundane and how to appreciate it. If your team wasn’t down 3 runs in the last inning of the world series with two outs, the grand slam has no meaning at all. The very fact that you are in danger, or about to fail is when success is truly meaningful. Addicts or people who constantly chase gold and fail horribly somehow make the realization that most of their life needs to be lived with in this realm of normalcy. To do that they also begin to realize it will take different methods and strategies to achieve daily success, which directly correlates to one thing, discipline. To function day to day they are going to have to develop a daily ritual and exercise it all the time, to cultivate a good chance of success. This will only be achieved by following certain rules and guidelines they personally must set out for themselves and be disciplined enough to keep it up all the time.
These people must somehow erect walls and defenses “boundaries” with themselves and their world, so they always understand what choices they can make and what places to avoid. They must also revive their own inner warriors (will) to help them protect the boundaries and patrol their own inner kingdom, keeping watch and on guard for threats. What is the warriors virtue? Discipline. You don’t become a warrior through luck or birth. It takes determination, will and massive training to hone the mind and body into a powerful martial instrument, with a warrior mentality. This is never given but must be earned through execution of intense discipline.
When you think about king Arthur or read about him, what do you find? You find Arthur with his knights, questing and on adventures. You don’t read about Arthur and his advisors or his accountants or his royal portrait painters or his analyst. you read about him and his knights/warriors/discipline. You also read about Merlin and Gwenivere but those two stand for the other forces within us. Listing the four are King, Warrior, Magician, Lover. Merlin the magician, Gwenivere the lover. Magician and lover are wonderful things but are not as important to us right now. Now we need to raise the king back up unto his thrown. Just as importantly we need to train our warriors to be strong enough to his bidding and protect the king and his realm. If not, if our warriors “discipline” is not strong, our king will either be killed or completely impotent in his power. Decisions will be made and great projects started but will never come to fruition, except through false or dark means. Then the king becomes a warlord, always raiding and pillaging his/her own life and all the other kingdoms “friends” “family” “coworkers” “relationships” around them.
Now a word about the king and these gold moments. To someone who is not a king in themselves, obviously meeting with the king moments are grand, glowing and intensely powerful. Here’s a secret I think or least something not usually thought about. The king doesn’t have any moments of gold. How could he, he is the king, every moment to him is a kingly and gold moment. But he doesn’t experience them because he is in balance and in union with nature. He has his master teacher and advisor the mage Merlin. He has himself to make decisions. His warriors to protect him, his kingdom and carry out his decisions and his beautiful queen to embrace and create more beauty. What they create she teaches him to understand, value and see in the world. Through this he connects with the YIN part of himself and his world.
In the words of Mel Brooks ” It’s good to be the King”. What that really means is it’s good to be in balance, harmony and union. The king is in union with his world and this union creates a balance that pervades the whole realm. Many old stories and sayings speak about the king being connected directly to the land. When he is healthy and balanced the realm prospers. Trees bear fruit, the people are healthy, fulfilled and thriving. The borders are protected and the dragons don’t come around anymore. When the king is sick, unbalanced, perverted the land begins to die, rivers dry up, plague comes, war and desolation as well.
To me it seems that understanding outer gold moments and golden hair, is recognizing that really the search is not for moments of gold. The golden hair represents the gold within us, which is already there. However it’s hidden or we hid it because we cannot handle it’s power. We cannot handle it because we are out of balance and lack the discipline to deal with mundane correctly. The road to gold is paved with the mundane. So the search is not for more moments of gold, it’s seeking the king and his 3 associates. Finding these great ones and bringing them into balance brings about the union of understanding and the power to utilize gold. Promising health, wealth and wisdom in abundance.
I have identified in my own journey that this quest stars with discipline. Wisdom is easily found nowadays, it’s everywhere, but how will you know how to properly use it with out the kings mindset and vision. The king is always there as well inside you, however if he is all by himself, unprotected with no warriors to carry out his decree, than what good is he doing. Lovers can be found everywhere today as well, dating websites, bars, meet ups, etc. But will they be fulfilling and nourishing to your soul if your king is weak and has no warriors to back him up. No I think not, you need the king to be healthy and alive to make these choices and be a good lover (creator). This means he must have knights around him. True knights are not born through a royal bloodline. They earn knighthood through accomplishing great task’s and completing arduous quests (journeys). During which they are tested repeatedly and the two things that allow them to succeed is determination and will. Which are created and kept strong through the exercise of discipline.
Jocko Willinick says discipline equals freedom. I believe him but I also have my own saying.
Discipline helps you find and protect the King/Queen
Matthew
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